193 Days Later

Lifestyle

I’m back! With a tale or two to tell, a lot of complaints to make and some more over sharing to do.

My last post was 193 days ago, when in Rome, which feels like an absolute lifetime ago. In that time I have been to Belgium and Mexico. A good couple of destinations for a financially horrifying year (London is draining me in more ways than one). Both trips were with my family. With us all being on different schedules, it was nice to spend some quality time with them. Belgium was beautiful. Mexico on the other hand was crazy. I think it may be my favourite holiday to date. We met the most amazing people and I can’t remember a second where I wasn’t laughing or without a cocktail.

London is still where I am currently calling home. About 6 months ago, I moved flat again, which yes, totals it to 3 different flats in one year – an achievement if you ask me. I now live in the most wonderful little studio flat in Camden. It’s expensive and comparable to a cardboard box but its all mine and I absolutely love it. A lot of people are a little bewildered by the fact that I choose to live on my own. But the hermit in me is happiest alone, surrounded by my own mess, with the kettle only an arm’s length away.

The one thing I was struggling with when I last wrote was loneliness. I knew it was going to take a little while to settle in but I was not at all prepared for how lonely it was going to be. You would think that being surrounded by so many people in such a huge city, feeling lonely couldn’t or shouldn’t be an option. It turns out, the more people there are, the more alone you feel. I also didn’t expect it to be so hard to make friends. Without beating around the bush, everyone in the real world is miserable and nobody cares for meeting new people. So be prepared kids, when you leave school/college/uni you’re on ya own…

However, within the past few months my boss blessed me with the most wonderful new runners at Kudos. I’m so unbelievably grateful to have two gorgeous gals to bug with my problems, share insatiable shopping habits and drink too much wine on a weekday with.

… Moving on from the amazing friends I have made, I have now indeed found myself the most wonderful man I could have ever imagined. After many a hopeless dates and lonely nights, I met Jack. He is my real life brown-haired, blue-eyed, 6 foot dream. If you’re reading this, you’re lame and I love you a lot x

In terms of TV, not that much has happened. I am still enjoying working for the incredible Kudos Film and TV, being part of the production of  recent shows such as Humans and Code 404. After being there for almost a year, my contract is due to end in November, so I now have to make the decision as to whether I want to stay in London or try to pursue a career in television whilst simultaneously living at home. As much as I love living in the city, it is hard work and I do feel like I need a break from the hustle. My parents are currently in the process of moving away from my hometown to the seaside, something I have dreamt of doing since I was a little girl, so that could be a pretty nice extended holiday for me whilst I’m deciding what on earth to do with myself.

So that sums up my past 193 days offline.

I have a lot to think about over the next couple of months which will inevitably lead to a very stressed Abs. But even so, I am super excited for what is to come and I can’t wait to share it with whoever may or may not be interested.

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie x

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Review: The Sinner

Film & TV

Since starting at Kudos I have been told by about 5 different people to watch the series The Sinner. Now I don’t know about anyone else or if this is just me and my stubborn ways, but when someone tells me to watch something I am actually less likely to do it? Weird huh. But last weekend I finally bit the bullet and tried it out.

Unsurprisingly because of the persuasion I had to watch it, it was amazing; I watched all 8 episodes in no more than 24 hours.

What I love most about this series is that it is so niche. The basic story-line gravitates around a seemingly ordinary woman and her family, a mysterious act of violence and the past behind it all. Rather than being the classic ‘who-dunnit’ it is the journey of finding out why she did what she did.

From the first episode it is undoubtedly gripping. In the first 5 minutes you believe that Cora Tanetti is a loving mother, wife and more importantly – sane. Until a family beach trip turns sour and she murders a man. From this point onward, you know the show is going to be a roller coaster. I mean, it literally went from 0 to 100 in approximately 5 minutes.

The protagonists are Cora Tanetti and the detective looking into her case, Harry Ambrose. She instantly pleads guilty to avoid a trial which seems fitting considering we literally witnessed her kill a man in cold hard blood, but the detective won’t give up without finding an explanation for her actions. Meanwhile, Cora would rather spend the rest of her life in prison than examine what has happened to her to make her so troubled. Because she has no idea why she did it, she lies about her motivation until Harry forces her to relay her past to find the truth.

This is where another aspect of the show comes in. We see Cora’s young self whilst looking into her flashbacks as she tries to understand what she has done. We meet her perplexing parents and ill younger sister, and see her challenging childhood, battle with drug problems and a lot of sex.

Unlike a lot of other shows, the flashbacks don’t feel like void fillers. Each and every one plays a vital part in the reason for Cora’s burst of beach-side rage, adding a piece to the puzzle. And when you do finally see the whole picture, let me tell you it does not disappoint. The reveal is not only unpredictable, but genuinely jaw dropping.

The Sinner makes you feel sympathetic, disoriented and uncomfortable all at the same time. The only way it could get better is with a second season.

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie x

 

Review: Girl Boss

Film & TV

So after a long time of having this blog I am finally writing a TV show review; it seems appropriate with everything going on in my life right now. I kind of expected most of my TV posts to be about Parks and Recreation because as I may have mentioned, I am obsessed. And now I’m working at Kudos I am likely to be posting a ton of posts ranting and raving about how good their shows are.

Anyway, if you know Netflix you know it can be a real challenge to find a good TV show to binge watch that isn’t overly dark and depressing. I mean this totally as a compliment because usually shows about conspiracies and murder are right up my street, but sometimes I want to watch a show that doesn’t make me feel on edge for 3 weeks afterwards. I really feel like I found that in Girl Boss.

There are a lot of programmes on Netflix that are slept upon and this is definitely one of them so you’re likely not to have heard of it. Girl Boss is loosely based on the Nasty Gal founder, Sophia Amoruso – Britt Robertson – a rebellious, broke misfit struggling to find her way in the world. After discovering a passion for fashion, she becomes an unlikely businesswoman through selling vintage clothing online. The story depicts how Nasty Gal grew into a multi-million dollar fashion empire and what Sophia has to go through in order to cope with the difficulties of life as her own boss alongside the struggle of growing up.

I personally love all of Britt Robertson’s films and TV shoes. She always plays characters that I feel as though I can connect with on both an emotional and humorous level. In the first few episodes of Girl Boss she plays a really stuck up, stubborn, selfish character which can admittedly get a little annoying. But if you give it enough time, you start to understand why Sophia is the way she is and like all people, there is more to her than meets the eye. Watching her grow as a person alongside her business is fascinating and the fact that it is based on a true story makes it even more inspiring. The story shows that you can go from being completely lost – which a lot of people in our generation feel like nowadays – to turning your life around and doing something amazing. A lot of us tend to take things so seriously with all the pressure of having a lavish lifestyle and being successful so the comedic aspect of the show is super nice too watch. Despite being a little ridiculous, the comedy actually makes you think about things. For example, when Sophia says: “no matter where you are in life, you’ll save a lot of time by not worrying too much about what other people think about you. The earlier in your life that you can learn that, the easier the rest of it will be.” I think this is something that everyone in this day and age should consider.

Granted, the show can be a little up and down so I can understand why a lot of people haven’t got on board with it. But personally, I find the slightly annoying and narcissistic nature of the main character and story line to be a really accurate portrayal of society today.

Whilst researching for this post I found that Girl Boss has actually been cancelled by Netflix and there won’t be another season ☹️. I thought I would still post it because I still thought it was a good watch and I wanted to know what you guys think!

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie x

Chapter 1: My Career in Television

Film & TV, Lifestyle

This post is supposed to be an explanation into how I got into television, both for future reference for myself and also to help anyone else out there that might be struggling to find their way into the industry. I didn’t really want it to be a ‘so the moral of the story’ post but it definitely will be so here we go…

If any of you guys read one of my first ever blog posts, you will know that in Spring this year I went to This Morning Live, an exhibition in Birmingham based on the daytime television show. Whilst I was there, I met the editor of This Morning, Martin Frizell. Me being the upfront person I am unashamedly went up to him, told him my life story and asked how on earth I was supposed to get into television – my dream career since I was about 10 years old. It turns out that my confidence paid off as 7 months later I have an actual job in actual television!

My first opportunity came about after Martin gave me his email address and told me to contact him with my CV. He was kind enough to help me get onto the ITV insight programme where I completed a 2 week work placement at the ITV studios on the Southbank in London working with the production team on This Morning. This was a dream come true considering I had never done anything in television before so my first experience was in a huge live TV programme where I got to see exactly how things work. I met some really awesome people whilst I was there, both celebrities and people that work on the show who were so welcoming and really tried to help me with my career path.

I happened to get talking to some of the girls in the fashion department and they asked if I would like to intern with them. This is the main reason I moved to London; I was going to be spending 5 weeks here anyway so I thought why the heck not just move for good? I wasn’t getting paid for the internship so I had to get a part time job in order to pay for my rent and well… to live. I got a job at Brandy Melville in the Oxford Street Topshop meaning I was working 12 hour days, 7 days a week. I can honestly say those 5 weeks nearly destroyed me. There were many breakdowns and numerous teary phone calls back home but I got through it. I completed my internship with the fashion department at This Morning and quit my horrendously painful job at Brandy in order to focus solely on a career in television.

My perseverance and also knowing I wouldn’t have anywhere to sleep if I didn’t get a job made me determined to work as hard as possible in order to find a production company that would take me on with my small amount of experience. I spent hours writing and sending emails to individual production companies knowing that there was only a slim chance of getting a reply let alone any actual work. After sending what must have been a hundred emails, I got a phone call from someone at a production company called Kudos.

Kudos are producers of TV drama such as Broadchurch, Grantchester, Humans, Life on Mars and MI High (any of my main CBBC watchers out there remember that?) They produce incredibly successful content for broadcasters as big as the BBC, ITV, Channel 4 and Sky Atlantic. After going into their head office for an interview, I got invited to do a 3 day trial with them for an office runner role. On my first day I immediately knew I had to get the job. The people were lovely, the job was so much fun and I was finally where I wanted to be.

…My first day was 4 weeks ago and I haven’t left since. Yesterday, I officially signed my contract to be an office runner/receptionist at Kudos Film and Television.

Looking back to this time last year, living in London with a job that could potentially lead to my dream job was a fantasy so wild I could barely even imagine it. Just over 12 months ago I was completely lost, I had dropped out of school and I was fighting a mental illness that very nearly got the better of me. I now get paid to be in an environment I love with people I admire.

So the moral of the story is that you can gain something from every experience in life, whether they are good or bad. If it wasn’t for the experiences I have been through, I wouldn’t be where I am today. Without leaving school due to mental health issues I  wouldn’t have worked at House of Fraser to earn money that is allowing me to live in London. Without working at House of Fraser I wouldn’t have got the time off to go to TM Live where I met Martin Frizell and without the thick skin that my past has given me, I wouldn’t have the determination I have today to pursue my dreams.

Whatever it is you want to achieve, you can do it.

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie x

Update: I’m Alive

Lifestyle

Hello strangers! This is just a quick update as to where I am at in my life at the moment. I have been totally missing in action for the past month which I feel awful about as I happened to start a small following on my blog (I can’t believe you lovely lot are actually interested!) Although I am still beginning, I have felt so welcomed and already I have met some wonderful, interesting and inspiring people so I am determined to update you all on my antics at least twice a week from now on.

There isn’t a specific reason as to why I haven’t posted in a while – I guess i’m just lazy and parks and recreation/napping takes up most of my free time. ​But despite going off the grid for the past month, I have actually managed to drag myself out of the house (a miracle I know) to do some pretty cool things.

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Loose Women

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Borough Market

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The Golden Hinde

So I had an actual dream come true last month when I went down to London to see Loose Women filmed live. Loose Women is a magazine gossip show aimed primarily at adult women (not 17 year old girls) so if you know what this show is, please don’t judge me. It was such an amazing experience to be in the studio and to see what happens as the show is filmed live. It has made me even more determined to get my dream job in television and the added bonus was that the tickets are free! Whilst in London, we took a trip to Borough market where we had fresh bread, doughnuts and juice and looked round quaint flower shops. We also happened to walk past The Golden Hinde – Sir Francis Drake’s ship. Honestly I have no idea what it was, I was thouroughly confused as to why there was a huge boat in the street and quite honestly I’m only talking about it because my Mum took a cute candid of my outfit with it in the background and it makes me look kind of educated…

 

As if London wasn’t being ‘touristy’ enough, we also took a trip to Stratford upon Avon to see Shakespeare’s crib. Stratford is literally 20 minutes down the road from us so I’ve never seen it as a cool destination to explore, but our family from New Zealand thought it would be interesting to see so we thought we’d show them around. It turns out there’s actually some really good things to see there – who knew!

 

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Warwick Castle

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Due to the delightful weather we’ve been getting recently I managed to fight my vampire-like tendencies and actually get out into the sun for once without feeling like dying. My best friend Sam and I have taken some super cute trips to some super cute places.  Our first adventure was on a rowing boat on the River Avon in Warwick; despite always saying how much I dislike my town, the view of Warwick Castle by the water never fails to amaze me. Although, Sam’s ability to row a boat may have made the experience a little less relaxing than it could have been. Next, we decided to take a spontaneous trip to Devon for the night. It was about 3PM when we decided to take a 3 hour drive to the beach (crazy or cute? Hm) but even though we only had a short stay, I had the best time ever. We ate dinner on the beach and watched the sun set, played mini golf, ate cheesy chips and won a toy elephant on the amusements – it was basically your dream weekend. Lastly, I went to Coombe Abbey with my friends for a picnic. I honestly didn’t realise how many pretty places there are close to me; Coombe Abbey is a lakeside country house and park with the most amazing views. We sat drinking our copious amount of cider and our Lidl picnic (very classily may I add) for a good 4 hours before we realised that the nature was too much and we needed to get back to Netflix.

​After not seeing the majority of my friends for a good 6 months, I finally decided to make my debut by surprising one of my best friends at her 18th birthday party. Above is a super cute gif of us all being drunk, weird and very very happy.

Lastly, here is a gif of me petting my dearest friend and pup Dexter. He fell down the stairs this morning and has felt very sorry for himself since so I thought I would give him some lovin’ too.

So that’s it for the update. I promise to improve my time management so nobody will have to send out a search party for me for the forseable future. I already have multiple posts lined up and there is also quite a few exciting things happening in the next month which I can’t wait to share with all 29 of you!

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie

XO

This Morning Live

Lifestyle

 

So today I went to the This Morning Live event at the NEC in Birmingham! The primary reason for wanting to go was because my mum and I love the show so I thought it would be a nice and different day out for us. Although, I also went in hopes of finding someone that could help me get into the television industry. Since about the age of 12 years old, I have wanted to work in TV. I started thinking I wanted to work in children’s television but now it would be an absolute dream come true to play a part in any of it. Going to see an event for one of my favourite programmes just made me realise how much I want I want a career in this sector.

We met a fair few stars from the show, Phil and Holly walked past us (they’re even prettier in real life), we met Rylan and I had conversations with both Dr Zoe Williams (previously on Gladiators) and Dr Ranj Singh (previously on Cbeebies show Get Well Soon). I spoke to them about my blog in hopes that they might be interested – a long shot I know – and asked them how they got into television and if they had any tips for me. Everyone was so genuine, helpful and lovely. Obviously I knew that these guys wouldn’t actually be able to land me my dream job, but I did manage to find the editor of This Morning who is a very big deal in television. It was the perfect opportunity for me to ask some questions so I did, at first he laughed and I was so tempted to say ‘ok, thanks bye’ but I carried on, I told him about dropping out of A Levels, being desperate to work in TV and how I’d even be happy to make drinks because I know I just need to get my foot in the door. Despite the crowds of people waiting to have a photo, he stood and talked to me, answering all my questions and trying to help as much as possible. By the end of our chat, he gave me his email! I’m so glad I sucked my nerves up and went over to him – this could be the start of everything!

My Mum and I spent the rest of the day shopping and doing girly things. We had afternoon tea at the Monarch coffee hub, went shopping, got a free manicure at the eBay stand, marvelled over the guide dogs and found as many freebies as we could fit into our bags. I’ve had such a successful day! I may have a small lead to getting my dream job and my Mum and I had a much needed girl’s day out. If you’re going to the show over the weekend I hope you enjoy it as much as we did. If not, fingers crossed it’ll be a yearly occurrence.

For our next adventure, we’re going to see Loose Women filmed live in London. Bring it on!

Hugs and wishes,

Abbie

XO

First Impressions: Me

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If you have found your way to my first ever blog post, you’re probably lost, let’s be honest. Perhaps you’re looking for answers or hoping for some entertainment; I can’t promise that i’ll provide any of that. But I intend on being real and talking about real life things.

I’m not going to sugarcoat my life to seem perfect and fulfilled because it’s not. Why lie to myself and anyone else on the internet? Not that I really expect anyone to read any of this. Honestly, i’m using this page as a way to be pretty damn selfish – to talk about my interests, my wellbeing and trying to find myself.

Despite always saying and thinking I don’t care for anything or anyone (sounds dark, I know) i’m starting to realise maybe it’s the little things in life that count. See, I love to shop and styling is something I like to think i’m good at. I also enjoy reading or finding a good TV series to rant and rave about. My passion for flowers and afternoon tea is said to be unusual for a girl of my age but who cares? This is me. No filter. No fake smiles. No clinical depression to hide behind.

This blog will be a journey through my thoughts, feelings and interests. Hopefully i’ll find a way to start enjoying life along the way.

If anyone’s reading this, thankyou for taking the time to make my world a better place.

-AG